I had a bit of a relapse with my diet this week. Nothing too bad but my commitment definitely fell by the wayside. It's weird, because I've lost 25kg right, but I feel no different. I don't feel particularly motivated or envigorated or inspired, I'm just doing it because it's what I have to do. I'm not passionate about exercising or getting healthy ( Read more... )

I'm waking up in night terror.
Can't stop the future, keeps pushing me ahead.
I feel the weight of the world crushing down on me.
And time seems so linear
Decisions seem so absolute.
It's a harsh realm
Don't abandon me.

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Last night I had a huge fight with mum that was instigated and fueled as always by her alcoholism. I can't be bothered to go into the specifics, honestly it doesn't even matter. The point is it got so bad I had I leave for the night because I didn't feel comfortable or safe at home.

It's been a while since we've had a fight like that but it still ( Read more... )